What is my Next Step?
It has been awhile since my last post. My life has been full lately. I continue to process the deep wounds in my life. Between work and processing through the darkest seasons in my life; I have been stretched thin emotionally and physically. A very wise friend of mine Ricky Chelette from Living Hope Ministries told me “this is a process not event.” Thank you Ricky for those wise words they have sustained my commitment to the healing journey time and again. Many internal changes are taking place deep within me.
Since April of 2012, I have been job searching in the greater Dallas Forth Worth area. These are challenging and competitive times for every position open. However God in His wisdom has been preparing me me to make the transition to the DFW area. I have been challenged to entrust this aspect of my life to Him. During the last month or so I have noticed a very internal switch taking place within me. As December began I became very aware that I would be making the move To Dallas very soon. In my mind this meant I would have a job and the ideal place to live.
However, I am discovering God often has a different path for us to follow one that rarely matches our own plans. In fact it most often defies our own understanding and moves us to press into God for all that is needed for the next step of faith. This is very apparent in my own life. God has made provision for me to move to Dallas between the end of December and mid-January. December 28 will be my last day on staff at my church. I will be leaving behind good friends some who have become family to me. That’s the bitter sweet part of this decision.
This move is a step of faith on my part as I will be going with a small cushion and no job on the horizon. However, I am confident this is the next step in my journey. A good friend of mine reminded me of the clip from the Indiana Jones film the Last Crusade where Indy comes to the Chasm and must to choose to take a leap of faith into the unknown. Enjoy the scene accompanied by Jeremy Camp and his song Walk by Faith.
I know some will think I have lost my mind in taking such a risk, but sometimes you have to do what God tells you to even when it appears illogical and seems impossible to understand. Hum, I think I have been here before just about four years ago when I took my first steps of faith and God placed it on my heart to move to East Texas. This time I have a clear concept of who God is and a confidence He will provide what I need as I embark on this adventure. ”It’s impossible, nobody can jump this…its a leap of faith.” Indiana Jones Last Crusade.
Thank you for following my journey. Please feel free to leave comments and questions.